This is one historical and divine day. Historic because this is a crossroad in my life’s direction and divine because the series of events that happened this day seems to be in unique order orchestrated from up above.
Let us get to the point. I have shifted from BS Accountancy to BS Business Economics. The story behind this is quite funny. At the start of the semester, I calculated that I only need to get two D’s in order to proceed for 2nd semester. Unfortunately or fortunately, I was so lazy not to check my manual for the equivalent of D that I assumed it was 1.5 which is actually 1. So for the entire semester, I was holding up to a false hope that I only need to maintain 2 D’s while actually I need 2 C’s. This culminated this morning when I received my evaluation form with no signature of the chairman. I got suspicious of my previous calculations that I viewed the manual inside the office. I was shocked to see that D = 1. Poor me, deceived by my one stupidity. I just sat their and processed that sense of confusion inside me. Then all came back to me. I then became happily suspicious of God’s intention for me and the confusion ended there. I released all intentions of appealing for a chance to proceed and I wholeheartedly accepted my fate because I know deep inside me, there is a that great sense of liberation.
Prior to this near epiphany, statements I consistently declared to people came rushing back such as my intention not to take the board exams, my disinterestedness to corporate life, and my weakness on rigid technical application. These things seem to create a picture I readily understand. I don’t one to spend another year dragging my feet and relying only to my extra-curricular activities for emotional strength. Then I simply said accounting is definitely not for me. But I have no regrets entering in this program. I have learned so much such as critical thinking, patience, the value of quality study time, and practice. And in the words of one accounting teacher who texted me after I shifted:
“Blessing in disguise na…sometimes you have to go through a lot of experiences and found out that those experiences will lead you to another one closer to what you really after off…hahaha mga peculiarities in life.”
I definitely agree with his message. And because of accounting I have realized what I do not want. I do not want to calculate the depreciation of a machine, argue the difference of cash and cash equivalents, debate over the “debitness” or “creditness” of an account, penetrate the meaning of prepositions in a problem and all these technical hullaballoo. I also realized that this is a golden opportunity to purse what I really want which I consistently tell people before. I want to go to research, study economic development and promote micro-financing. Recounting all my “what I want to be when I grow up” statements, it is fairly consistent. I want to research on economics, analyze the trend of the stock market, study the causes of the Great Depression, the factors that caused the Miracle of the Rhine, the economic implications of political thought, understand how people, how institutions, how nations play and interact with a social order and how human development brings about. And this is very close to what I really desire – Development Studies, my first course in college that was dissolved because of poor enrolment. I guess accounting is simply a tool for it and I don’t want to dwell in that tool. I want to understand the whole picture and rearrange it. Therefore, the most practical course to shift is BS Business Economics. I know this course provides the intellectual space I need to explore new school of thoughts in both micro and macro economic concepts and its application and I am afraid that accounting does not provide that intellectual creative space. Now, I finally can study want I want to study. That is economics – this is dealing with concepts, social structures and people’s behaviour. And I tell you, I never felt so confident with my decision like this before. And like a sign saying that you made the right decision, Sir Ivan of SACDEV texted me while I was getting my schedule that I have qualified to proceed to the interview stage of the Ayala Young Leaders’ Congress. I will be interviewed by the top CEOs of Ayala Group this November. This is an all expense paid trip to
